it's been quite a while since the last time i updated this blog. i just didnt know what to write, or how to express myself lately. going back home does not make things any better. i cry more easily. i kinda like it but not if it's too much to handle. i got a lot more to think about, to worry about. being insecure makes me go insane. as if the string i've been holding onto would snap into two anytime.

i feel vague. lots of things are going around my mind lately. i wanna break free by leaving all these but i just cant. life wont be interesting without all this hectic stuff, i know that very well. but if i could choose, perhaps a dull life would suit me better.

i dont understand people, i never do. it's my nature being that i realized since god knows when. i've been contemplating to speak my heart out upon a particular thing but i guess i dont need to waste my time on it and it's useless. people move on. he moved on. why do i still keep thinking about it so much? i have to close the book and forget this. the past is nothing more than a past. it's a part of my life but i shouldn't keep holding onto it. i'm glad i made a right decision a few days ago.


of all the new magz pics, this is my favorite. i dont know why. the moment i saw this, i fell for him all over again <33

I've got a mind boggling, sense numbing, heart pounding, stomach flipping, take-my-breath-away, head-over-heels, knee shaking, daydreaming, butterfly fluttering crush on you.





























credits to the amazing gpx artists who made this lovely icons~ <3