dawn is coming in a couple of hours. what am i doing? in times like this, peaceful sleep can do nothing - if there's any peaceful sleep in the first place. as if lying to myself, i drowned myself to sleepiness before i ought to. what's the use of it when i would wake around to get reminded of that again? hate eating me from the inside. envy occupying my mind. what is wrong with me?

when i would ask her, she wasn't answering. when i would ask her, she was the one who needed an answer. when i would ask her, she was not around. when i would ask anyone, did anyone bother? why should they anyway?

closing my eyes
thoughts wander around
words spinning
some old scenes playing
imagination comes to life
so many questions remain unanswered
suddenly it dawns on me
this is a person i've become
the feeling comes and goes
affectionate when accepting
desperate when letting go
a realization hits me
i should never be weak anymore
let it be eternally


you are one to miss
so many words to write
but i just cant think straight
you impact me within miles away
a wonder it is
but you make the impossible possible

I've got a mind boggling, sense numbing, heart pounding, stomach flipping, take-my-breath-away, head-over-heels, knee shaking, daydreaming, butterfly fluttering crush on you.





























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