internet connection in indonesia sucks!!!! this is why sometimes i'm thinking of going back to singapore. i got a lot to catch up later when i'm back. lots of yunjae fic, jaejoong pics - why suddenly there were LOADS of T concert pics?!?!?!?!? *cries* - jaejoong fansites, clubbox, dongbang news, gossip girl, who are you, etc etc~~~~

i just feel like ranting atm. although noone would be reading this, except milk. how are you doing there? *waves* XD dont kill yourself yet coz you miss me too much. i'll save the day on the 10th :DDDD

talking about my birthday, it's always been a surprise when some people i didnt know too well knew my birthday and gave me birthday wishes while some others who i expected to know didnt know it at all. i dont mean to blame them but receiving birthday wishes is the most sincere moment i feel with friends. honestly i hate birthday reminder, like friendster and all that, coz it tells the people who forgot or didnt know at all about my birthday. oh well, i think this year there were only around 8 people - excluding my family - who really remember my birthday. as for the gifts, i dont really need them. i feel more than happy knowing the people i know, whom i talk to and hang out with most of the time, remember my birthday coz for me it shows that they care about me. this is why the more i know people, the more i love my dog. the more i know jaejoong, the more i love him :DDDD

so my old friends from high school contacted me again. one of them said they all wanted to see me. so when i reached jakarta, i sent her an sms telling that i've reached. she said she would arrange the time and place with the others to meet me. but yesterday when i smsed her again she didnt reply at all. now who's the desperate one? noone deserves my desperation but jaejoong. i dont see MY need see them anyway. as if seeing them would bring me to jaejoong. it would just bring back old memories i hate.

another old friend smsed me too. she said she's got herself a boyfriend and i'm the second person to know. something's fishy here as i've not been talking with her since like last year already. so i took it like 'yeah right'. she asked me if i still liked dongbang and said that they appeared a lot on arirang till she got bored seeing them. talking about her boyfriend, he's 3 years younger than her and she said i could check him out on her friendster. without having my hope high, i saw her friendster just now and there he was, the so-called her 3-year-younger boyfriend, wonbin from ft island. LMAO. when i saw that, i felt like calling her and telling what ft island did in malaysia when they were going to have a concert there, just like what milk told me. but then again i thought, what for? i'd better use my time to do something more useful than that, like blogging :DDDD which i haven't been doing for a while. i think i'll just tell her that i dont have the time to open her friendster. i dont want her to think that i'm that interested in her business.

anyway, my conversation with my sister a few days ago.... XDDDD
me: hey, is totoro a ghost?
her: WHAT?!
me: is it a ghost???
her: NO! he's a god!
me: *gives a WTF look* god?! what god?!
her: he's like a forest god or something.
me: he doesnt look like one.
her: cant you see he's huge and almighty?
me: well, he certainly doesnt have charisma.......... just like junsu, hahahahah!!
her: what did you say?! (FYI, she likes junsu XD)
me: he's like junsu, no charisma, hahahaha!
her: yeah yeah whatever, junsu is not your jaejoong who got charisma.
me: jaejoong got everything!!!! <3
*JJ PWNS*

okay no jaejoong pic in this entry coz you know why >.>""

I've got a mind boggling, sense numbing, heart pounding, stomach flipping, take-my-breath-away, head-over-heels, knee shaking, daydreaming, butterfly fluttering crush on you.





























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