just read that dongbang is going to hollywood bowl this year! so happy for them XDDD but kinda jealous with the fans on the other side - although there's nothing can be jealous over since i'm practically living on another side of the world. but still, i wanna see jaejoong so badly >< who doesnt? *sigh* oh and i saw at LJ there's someone selling a pair of T concert tickets for nagoya concert on 15-16 april. i really wanna buy it!! *cries* but it's all too sudden and i've got final exam coming up T____T i'm really really really desperate for jaejoong *kills self*

there's this fic on soompi that attracts my attention coz jae is portrayed as a weird guy who never talks. this is the second fic where jae is not the main character that attracts me other than 'tvxq instant messenger' - where the main character is junsu. 'the inner workings of shim changmin' with changmin as the main character is a very funny fic XDDD it's like a diary of changmin where he becomes the narrator. read the last chapter just now and this was what cracked me up:

First of all, no one knows what he looks like.
Secondly, he hardly talks.
Thirdly, he never socialises.
Fourthly, he's scary.
Fifthly, that boy is too damn smart for his own good.
And lastly... WHAT HAPPENS IF HE'S A MUTANT?!

Can you imagine the Jaejoong-Yeonhee babies?! They're all gonna be pretty angelic-looking babies with one humongous eye blinking innocently!

that's changmin's description about jaejoong XDDDDD LMAO.

onto my boring life, 'that' person called my house and demanded to talk to me. blah. so this is how the whole story going - just bear with me coz i'm gonna talk about this for a while since i'm still pissed off because of her.

Housemate: hey, [insert 'that' person's name here] asked us to grab something to eat nearby. wanna come?
Me: huh? where?
H: the foodcourt across the street.
My Thought: but i hate eating there and i dont want to see 'her'
M: nah... i think i'm just gonna buy some korean food. you just enjoy yourself together with her.
H: okay then.

-- 10 minutes later --

H: hey, change of plan. we're not going to the foodcourt but going for some korean food instead. wanna come?
M: huh? erm... i'm not hungry yet. just go with her without me for now. i'll eat later.
H: okay.

-- 5 minutes later --

*phone rings*
H: hey, [insert 'that' person's name here] is looking for you.
M: *swt* okay... *picks up the phone* hello?
The Person I Hate: long time no see!!!! why do you never look for me nowadays?
MT: huh? how am i supposed to look for you when a couple days ago you just treated me like some kind of trash? you think i've got nothing better to do? i'd rather go look for jae.
TPIH: and what's wrong with your cellphone?! i dont seem to be able to call you!!
M: oh.... i've got no balance left. *dry laugh*
MT: the truth is i turn it off coz i dont want to get any call or sms from you. i even deleted your number. ha!
TPIH: hahahahaha *hysteric laugh* anyway, how come i couldn't access your blog?! you removed it?!
M: yeah, i deleted it.
TPIH: but why???
M: no particular reason.
TPIH: go make a new one then! otherwise i cant stalk you anymore!
M: *dry laugh*
MT: i deleted it on purpose coz i dont wanna be stalked by you!
TPIH: why dont we go eat together?
M: uh... no thanks, i'm not hungry yet. you just go without me, i'll grab something to eat later.
TPIH: but we've never seen each other for quite a long time already *whines* i wanna see you!!
M: *dry laugh*
MT: if i recall correctly, the last time we've seen each other you were mad at me so what's the point of seeing each other when it's still not clear whether you're still mad at me or not? - and it's only around.. 3-4 days we didn't see each other.. duh...
TPIH: then tell me what time you wanna eat, we'll go together.
M: then how's my housemate? she's gonna be starving if you're waiting for me.
TPIH: ah yeah...... nevermind. i go eat together with her now and accompany you to eat later. what time are you gonna eat?
M: erm... not sure... i just ate biscuits so i'm quite full. maybe i wont eat anything. besides, no need to accompany me.
TPIH: huh? why?! you must eat!! otherwise you'll get sick!
M: nah. i wont get sick. it's not the first time i'm not eating properly.
TPIH: but still you MUST eat!!! dont you know how much i care for you????
M: *coldly* no.
TPIH: well now you know right? i really care for you! you must eat!!
MT: geez..... i wish those words came out from jaejoong's mouth, not hers =.=""
M: dont worry about me. you just take care of yourself.
TPIH: okay then i'm going to eat now. just tell me when you're going to eat so i can accompany you.
M: hm.
*hangs up*

wondering why i got so upset with her? i think what she did to me was unforgivable. i want her to APOLOGIZE to me. at least say that she's sorry for what she's done and maybe i'll forgive her - or ask jae to tell me to forgive her then i'll DEFINITELY forgive her straight away. but even if i forgive her, i will still stay away from her. dont want to be treated the same way for the third time right? i'm a vengeful person so anything bad everyone does to me i can remember it clearly. actually, to think about it again, all people i know had done something bad to me =/ what a life.

I've got a mind boggling, sense numbing, heart pounding, stomach flipping, take-my-breath-away, head-over-heels, knee shaking, daydreaming, butterfly fluttering crush on you.





























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